i have no idea kenapa lately sumpah malas nak study. hari tu berkobar kobar nak dapat good pointer la segala but then rasanya those feelings dissapeared. macam kau suka someone then dapat tau dia dah ada girlfriend atau dia gay.
kau rasa sumpah crushed gila kan? rasa macam nak lari sembunyi. rasa macam hati kau sumpah sakit. rasa macam one whole world tiba tiba sunyi sepi dan kau rasa nak bunuh diri.
not literally, of course.
a new place macam fun. thrilled to be there, sebenarnya. tapi bak kata orang, buaya jinak jangan disangka tak makan orang.
okay tipu. no such thing.
tapi itulah. i think rasanya there is no such thing as a lab test there, which sucks much. and a strict rules about the clothings, no jeans and such. tapi itulah. exemption pun tak lepas lepas lagi. it's so hard to know where the office is when it's practically empty ALL the time and i miss my leisure life back in college. :(
can i change college? better yet can i work first? i have 54k debt loan and gonna add another 57k debt plus interest which might add up to total of 69k for degree only and i have to pay 129k for my studying excluding the masters later in future
why oh why ipta quota sangat sangat kecil?
dont make me talk about politics man. kang kena ISA pulak. urgh
why dont i just quit and kerja? haih. 3 years to go and a huge debt already in my pocket. life isnt being fair.
to think of it, when will it ever be kan?
p/s ; killing yourself is a sin, therefore boring yourself to death isn't?
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laa, harga dia mahal gak kan? baik msuk tempat I jer camtu, mmg laa bosan.. but harga 60k jer + 2 taun setel dah.. aww well, pape pun, since dah wat choice camtu.. ada laa hikmahnya, for instance dpt blaja bahasa jepun!! kan best tu :p
can i quit? darn it.
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