mr T-Rex

there's an interesting episode on How I Met Your Mother ; about seeing your ex after so many years.

seeing Robin all bubbly and so excited of the idea seeing her ex after 14 years really makes me wonder ;

what would my reaction be to see my ex after all these years?

Ted asked Robin why on earth would she be all bubbly and excited when that jerk broke her heart? She simply replied, i have no idea. when he's around me, i feel like i'm 16 all over again.

But the truth is, it's about winning-losing thing. you would love to see your ex if he/she is the one who broke your heart into pieces. you would love to see who they are seeing, how they are doing, are they doing okay and you'll start comparing yourself to them. if you are doing better than them, you're consider the winner. and you'll try to win.

being a normal human being, you tend to have curiosity of certain things. or perhaps everything. so you tend to be a curious lad when it comes to your ex. i've had a talk about this with my gals during my years in boarding school and yes, all of them answered they would love to see their ex, even from far away or through the social network (being a stalker is not a big deal to them) and see how they are doing AFTER the big break up. we usually do right?

curiosity kills the cat.

i'm happy now.

i won't mingle with the past because it's where it should be, THE PAST.

a friend of mine talked with me about this. i asked him, if he's willing to meet his ex after what she did to him. and shockingly, he told me he met her last month, accidentally.

and he had the same reaction as Robin did. he was acting foolishly in front if his ex, blushing and

being excited. when she left, he felt really stupid for acting that way.

well. i told him, benda ni tak boleh nak buat apa. hati dulu pernah suka, dia tak akan buang habis all the good/bad stuffs macam tu je. that's why he felt that way around her, he was still in love with her, whether he'll admit it or not.

it's just some random thought. i do hope i'll never see any of them because i dont wanna go through the heartbreak again. and i'm happier now than i could ever imagine. alone or not.

it's hot. and i'm off to bed. tata.